i'm back

Back in pullman, never skated over spring break, that was a big bummer. My plans to skate on saturday got canceled, so i'm excited to get back on them this next saturday. I really need to do more excercises to get my leg muscles more developed, so I can skate around bent at the knee and not be in pain. Need to do wall sits, I was told to time my wall sits and do them longer each time. I want to start doing that, had planned on doing it over break, but just never did. Other than that, i'm just doing school stuff, also meeting with the marketing team for derby on wednesday. That should be fun too!

oh man!

decided to check my bloggy, and noticed that i completely forgot to write about skating in lewiston last wednesday. Ya, more than a week ago. I am completely behind the times. Well it was an interesting experience. It was dollar night, and the place was completely OVER RUN with pre-teens. It was a bit of a nightmare. They were drama-tastic, small groups arguing with other small groups and sending the stink eye across the place. The building was very very small, so it was crowded. I definitely missed the good old times at the Lynnwood roll-a-way, and the fun skating parties. Which made me realize the last time I had been to a skating rink, i was on of those pre-teens running all over the place, but hopefully not as obnoxious as those kids. I know for a fact, I wasn't cussing anyone out, or sending angry texts, so I already know I was on a higher level. I honestly didn't skate that much, partially due to my hurt ass, and partially do to I'm lazy and out of shape. I can't skate that long, and it's embarassing and sucks. Speaking of sucking, I still do. I started to get a hang of the body shifting, and being able to move without falling, but it was so crowded, and the floor was really bumpy, so I didn't skate for long at a time. Going to Paddison's West on saturday with courtney and her little sister, and hopefully it won't be as ridiculously crowded, and I can get some good skate practice in. In other news I'm reading Whip It. It kind of sucks. I liked the movie, but the book just stinks. I really don't like Bliss in the book. She decides to try Roller Derby, and immediately is fantastic at it with little to no work at all. She does that in the movie too, but doesn't go straight to being a show off quite so quickly. In the book she really is a jerk too, she doesn't care about anyone but herself, completely ditches her friend with no thought about it, and just in general does only what she wants, and doesn't really care what anyone thinks, but not in the good way, cause she's really just a jerk. I want to see the movie again to see if maybe i just didn't notice how much of a jerk she was in the movie, but I really didn't think she was that bad. Plus the movie focused on roller derby as the number one, and in the book it's kind of background fodder, more of a place setting and something that's supposed to make us think she's cool. I'm hoping to finish it before I go back to school, so I'll see if I feel any differently by the end. Good luck to anyone who read all that, maybe I shouldn't write at 2:38 in the morning with I have thoughts running crazy through my head.

hiatus

So i've been on a kind of temporary hiatus from derby. First I hurt my butt, then I got sick (and still have a hurt butt) and now I'll be going home for spring break. So I won't be skating with the girls again until March 27th. Hoping to get some skate time in at home so I can actually get better at skating before I skate with the girls again. Still impatient to just be better, but haven't been on skates in a couple weeks either. Here's to getting back on the horse?

wild west showdown!

Since I couldn't make it back across the state this weekend for the big wild west showdown in bremerton, I'm watching the live bouts online. www.derbynewsnetwork.com I definitely am envious of these girls. They're amazing! I'm super eager to get to that level. Hopefully some day I will be! These girls ROCK. Plus, watching the bouts, you can see a few big girls in there! YAY! It's all so inspirational to keep busting my ass (hopefully not literally again) and getting better! Did not go to practice this morning since it still hurts to walk, i don't want to know what might happen if i fell again just yet. Next week I'll go for sure even if it doesn't feel 100%. I definitely am eager to get better, this can also be my downfall.

healing

Still waiting for my butt to heal. I went to the doctor on monday, and he said that I could get X-Rays done but it's not worth it, since there's nothing they could do if it were broken. I don't think I actually broke my tailbone, since it's been feeling gradually better. I thought it was feeling a lot better yesterday until my geology lab, when we had to walk around campus looking at the marble and such on buildings. After that, I was hurting pretty bad, Fortunately, this weekend many of the girls will be in bremerton at the big wild west showdown, so there isn't a real practice saturday anyway. I had been planning on still going and skating with the girls that are still here, but I think I'm going to just take it easy this week. Hopefully the following week I'll be well enough to get back on the skates! I did make a little handout flyer, haven't heard much back about it, so I don't know if they really like it or not, so i'll just post my current draft!

the pain!

first real practice on skates yesterday. It was very unnerving. Skating is much much harder than some of the girls make it look. I knew it was going to be hard, and that I was going to be sore. But I also thought I could handle it perfectly fine. I tried so hard on saturday, but I still have to stop and take a break, and after trying again, I had to quit a bit early. I felt like a failure, but I was in pain! I fell right on my butt really hard, and it still hurts to sit, stand up, walk around much, all of that. I think I bruised my tail bone pretty good. On top of that, my legs got really shaky and hurt so bad by the time I quit. It's embarrassing to not be able to keep up. I'm not done yet, I'm so determined to do this, I'm going to bust my ass to get better. I just have to get over being embarrassed and ashamed in the mean time. It's hard to express how much I'm really trying when I'm sitting on the bench. At the same time, I want to WANT to come back and keep working, and that means stopping when I feel like I am going to die. I will be back at the next practice, and I will continue to work until it hurts. I just need patience. I really wish there was someone else newer who sucked as much as I do, so I wasn't alone.

In other non-skate related news, hung out with friends last night, went to Kelli's boyfriend's place and played poker for the first time. We played with chips, no money, and I beat them all! BWAHAHAHA!

My skates!

My skates finally came!!!! yay!!! They fit pretty good, and i've tried skating around my apartment a little. i'm VERY shaking on my hard floor, carpet is super easy! hahaha. Right now I'm super excited to get better at it, a bit scared about the process of getting good at skating, but hopefully i'll get a hang of it soon! Thinking of going to the rec one to go practice a bit before saturday, but I don't want to be too sore when saturday comes! It'll be nice if we get the warehouse so we can have more practices!!